20
Meet my 20-year-old hat and my 20-year-old shoes.
There is something so glittery about the way I feel when I wear them. There are items like my 20-year-old hat and my 20-year-old shoes in my closet that I get absolutely ecstatic about wearing. When I put on this hat, I feel TWENTY. When I put on these shoes, I feel fabulous and ALMOST #adult. And that's the whole idea behind being 20, right? It's this year in life where you're not a teenager, but you're definitely not a full-blown adult. Perhaps our girl Britney said it best: "I'm Not a Girl, Not Yet a Woman."
I've heard people say 20 is just "the awkward year in between." Well, I decided being 20 is fun and fabulous and adventurous. Hey, Life's What You Make It.
I'm already halfway through 20 and here are some of the things I've learned about myself as a 20-year-old:
I love lipstick.
I'm a grandma and a 12-year-old at the same time. I love Frank Sinatra, and I love High School Musical.
It is perfectly okay to stand up for yourself. I don't have to be afraid of human beings. I can walk confidently, knowing that the Lord goes before me, and it is OKAY to say something that I'm not okay with, "for God gave us a spirit not of fear but of power and love and self-control." -2 Timothy 1:7
I don't have to pretend to enjoy playing sports.
However, I actually LOVE running (???)
I'm actually pretty bad at receiving human love. And that often says a lot about how I receive God's love for me. "As indeed he says in Hosea, 'Those who were not my people I will call ‘my people,’ and her who was not beloved I will call ‘beloved.’” -Romans 9:25. God, King of Kings, loves me, and I must trust that.
I don't have to have a 10-year-plan. or a 4-year-plan. or even a 1-year-plan.
God has molded my heart to feel pain others go through. However, He never intended for me to carry it on my own.
I love feeling 20 and all the lessons that come with it. Why worry about what's going to happen in my life in the next five or ten years, when I can enjoy the heck out of being right where God has me right now?
So here's to wearing all my "20-year-old" things!
I still have several months to continue figuring out what a 20-year-old wardrobe looks like, but WAY more importanly, I have several months to watch God's plan for my 20-year-old self unfold.